I’m terrified of this first post!
Because outside of general updates and ranting and raving on social media, I haven’t posted anything lengthy online in a number of years. I don’t know what people are going to think about what I have to say, because if numerous years on Tumblr, Twitter, Facebook and deviantART have taught me anything, it’s that you can’t please everybody—not even by a long-shot. Not even by a imagined smidgen!
However, I spent a chunk of my hard-earned money on a new laptop exclusively to use for my writing, and I have re-formatted my website for the blog to be the main feature (after many years of my digital art being the centerpiece), so I can expect that I have the gonads to put myself out there again!
If not because I’m feeling creative, then just out of sheer. Damn. Boredom.
The last year or so has put a lot on my mind—especially about my priorities in life. One of those was to cut out a chunk of my time to talk to the world about…whatever is on my mind. I used to do this a lot more, but being a Millennial scalp-deep in student debt and no job experience made my online image a much more high-stakes situation. I had to sell art commissions…I had to sell what was acceptable. I had to make myself marketable.
Let me cut to the chase—I’m in my early 30’s now. I paid off my student loans in 2018—so no, I am not a financial slave to avocado toast and Starbucks lattes! (I actually don’t like avocados that much). I’ve been at a stable day-job for almost half a decade—more writing-related than art-related—and I have a roof over my head that I share with my spouse, and her alone. My mental health is now under regular management, and I am much more capable of handling sudden situations than I was in the past.
I have fought hard not to be a certain kind of statistic, and I believe it has paid off.
Now that I’m in a place where I can write freely without paralyzing fear of judgment, we’ll see where this goes!
Thank you for reading along!